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Friday, 02 November 2007
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I hate the uncertainty of some things.
At one moment I could feel SO certain of something, I could scream it from mountain top. Yet, give it some time, and YOW! What you think you know is not what you really thought you knew in the beginning.
This frightens me on more levels than one.
ESPECIALLY when it comes to something like this.
I dont know what to do with myself.
I want to be able to trust what I feel and believe what I know.
...much too difficult to do at times where important things are on the line though.Too many thoughts to accurately describe.
Oh you mixee mixee messages. I spit on you!(I am a nerd. Seriously.)Not quite sure if you would call this pathetic or just straight up delusional...just cant stop thinking about it.
Sometimes, I've really gotta wonder what others TRULY think when the deepest parts of me...
things that have been pushed down and shoved into all the nooks and crannys of my heart
... come EXPLODING to the surface in the wierdest of times.
It's gotta be messy and confusing!
God bless my lovely roomies and the other people who listen to me over and over again.
Monday, 24 September 2007
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With each new day I'm realizing more and more that I'm not the same person I used to be.
Not the same as I was a year, 2 months, or even 2 weeks ago!
Crazy scary to have learned so much in such a short period of time...
But I wouldn't trade it or change it for anything.
Life is crazy good whether I always feel like it is or not.
I'm learning to be patient is stretching me in ways that I never thought possible, but I'm trusting that the end result will certainly be worth my while.
Seriously.
Who said there's any rush??
Currently Listening
Continuum
By John Mayer
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Monday, 04 June 2007
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Guhhello stupid.
I dont understand this new xanga layout.
I cant read my comments.
This may be why I stopped writing here to begin with.
Ridiculousnesss.
Friday, 01 June 2007
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Wow. Sure has been a while since I've written anything here...
Not entirely sure why Im even writing anything now, but I guess Im just in a contemplative mood and need to get some of my thoughts down in writing.
This past week has been emotional. I went into the week thinking that things were going to be a certain way, and wound up severely let down and disappointed. Now, as I sit here thinking back over it all...I cant help but see that I have a habit of putting myself in situations where I inevitably wind up confused and feeling insecure.
It's not that the week was BAD...I think I just need to take this step back and really analyze what it is that I want out of life. Im finally coming to some sort of realization that what I need and want is, in fact, important... AND I shouldnt let anyone or anything get in the way and discourage me from going after that.
I think that deep down I truly know what I want. Somehow, over the last year I've lost sight of it and lost myself in the midst.
Currently Listening
We Were Here
By Joshua Radin
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Friday, 03 November 2006
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Mono Round 2??
I think I actually saw my lung lying on the floor beside my bed when I woke up this morning.
I spent the better half of last night tossing and turning....trying to keep breathing past the thick wall of mucus that seems to be building up in my throat and chest. I could not stop coughing. SICK...I know.
SO...this goes down as the 5th time Ive been sick so far this year. Had mono this summer and I havent seemed to be quite rid of it yet....it almost comes in waves. One minute Im alive and kickin...the next Im contracting whatever the latest sickness is that seems to be traveling across campus. My immune system is so low...Im surprised I havent died.
Looks like Im not going anywhere today...
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I am currently in the Masters of Counseling program at Grace College....I love hanging out with people and getting to know them better.....I like to talk about the deeper things in life.....Learning more and more about my awesome Savior Jesus Christ is my ultimate passion in life.
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